.I'm at an artist mental block, I cant think of anything let alone figure out how to setup the wireless internet for my new laptop (a gift from a good friend, thank you).
Anyways fuck it, hopefully Ill figure the wireless stuff out soon, its a pain trying to use other peoples computers all the time because its just rude, besides that I gotta figure out other things first, before Im online wasting time or writing.
For now Ill just watch House MD, and stick with the plan that Ive been workin on, till then the art and writing can wait, seeing as nothing is actually happening to get outta the mental block of non-creativity lol. Lately and all summer Ive been in and outta the hospital, it sucks so bad, all the doctors Ive seen so far always ask me if Im on any hardcore shit like mad rocks etc, and even when I answer with the truth they don't believe me, fuck it , Its not like they ever actually do anything to help me. God I needed this rant and a new place to live, majorly the last one. Its so hard to find a place to live in when youre just a teenager, especially when youve got limited money and not many connections and need your schooling.
Once again, fuck it! This doesnt seem like its actually happening, its hard to believe anything is real eh? or that time is something youll never actually get back till its gone for good. Sorry Mum and sorry Dad, but right now I regret nothing, because the both of you, even though are both against each other, are both against me too whether you realize it or not, what the both of you have done as affected me too, even more then either of you could ever imagine in these last 6 years.
-kaz
PS: (capital "k's" make me feel uneasy, dunno why they just bug the shit out of me though)
Something is scratching it's way out
Something you want to forget about
No one expects you to get up
All on your own with no one around
URGHH!! Someone help me get outta this artist block! please!
Dazed
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